I can't believe that 2011 has come and gone. As I get older the years seem to fade together. Sometimes it's hard to remember exactly how and when things happened. However, 2011 will defiantly be a year I remember.
I can't believe that 2011 has come and gone. As I get older the years seem to fade together. Sometimes it's hard to remember exactly how and when things happened. However, 2011 will defiantly be a year I remember. This year brought many changes for me. Most significantly a new job and a move to Tyler. To be completely honest, sometimes I still have mixed feelings about my decision. Professionally, I'm happier than I've ever been. I love being a counselor. I love working with elementary students. I love the people I work with. Professionally, it was absolutely the right choice.
When it comes to my personal life, I'm still struggling. Of course, I knew it would be a difficult adjustment when I decided to move . . . . and I was right. Leaving my comfort zone was hard. Sometimes I miss Dallas so much I can hardly take it. I miss my quirky little East Dallas neighborhood. I miss my church. (I'll post later about how the church search is going.) I miss Zoe. I miss my friends and being close to Steffi, Tad and Beau. I miss being in the city - the lights, the arts, the culture, the shopping - The Noise!
I remember when I moved to Dallas in 1999, It took a little getting used to. I was lucky to make a forever friend in Amy right from the start. I met her my first day of work. It took just 3 months to find a church home and many friendships followed. I also have to acknowledge that I was 22 years old and fresh out of college. I was tossed into a large group of other young singletons who where learning to navigate life in the city. We had each other, we bonded and I had a blast!
So to be fair, I know I need to give it time, a fair shot - and I'm willing to do that. I've got time. Another good thing that has come out of my move is that I'm free of the fear that held me back. I've certainly conqored my fear of stepping out on my own. It's freeing and it's been good for me.
Twelve
I'm excited to see what God has in store for me in 2012. There are many things that way heavy on my heart this time of year. I don't think I'm alone in that this time of year often reminds me of the things I wasn't able to accomplish in the past year. For me, I don't feel quite as bad about those this year because of the evident changes that I can see. Still there are always a few personal goals I hope to reach. Always heath and personal fitness are a constant struggle.
I haven't blogged much about this next subject because it's sort of personal, but I feel inclined to share. One thing I am praying for in this next year is a Godly man with whom I can share my already fabulous life. I'll be turning 36 this year and I'm certainly ready for such a great adventure. I feel that God has given me the desire to be married and have a family of my own. For whatever reason, it hasn't happend yet. I won't lie, it hasn't been easy over the years watching pretty much everyone I know find love, settle down and start their own families. I know I haven't always been patient about the waiting. In fact my impatience may have very well be the reason God said "No" when I thought I was ready for such a blessing. I hope that even in this past year, I've grown. I know now, more that ever that His timing is best. I can and will wait for my love story.
Have a blessed 2012!
1 comment:
A wise pastor's wife told me when we were moving from TX to VA that we would have to live there through all the seasons and holidays before it started to feel like "home". After two more moves since then, I can tell you for certain that she was right. You're half way there! Our most recent move has been the easiest for me but I see my kids looking back at "our old house" and "our old friends". It just takes time. Happy new year "old friend"! :)
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